A story of pegasus and little mermaid

Once upon a time there was a blonde blue eyed prince who saw a brunette princess in his dance class. Their paths crossed when it was their turn to dance which quickly made them realizes this will not be the last time they dance together. As they went their separate ways the grew to care for other people but deep down knew those loves weren't forever. One evening as the princess was having dinner her prince appeared out of no where and she knew it was the right time to reconnect with her long lost prince. To her disadvantage he was busy with life but still managed to keep some form of communication. Her heart grew cold of sadness putting up a wall and only allowing her one true prince to come and knock it down. She gave him the opportunity to come to her event to hope there may still be love left but he unfortunately did not show due to the wicked witch of the west cast an evil spell on him. Once he broke free of that evil spell he asked her to join him at a night full of friends and laughter to celebrate the green holiday they call St. Patrick's Day which they quickly realized it will be a night they could never forget. Although the princess was cautious and had doubt of her decision she took a chance and allowed her long lost prince to sweep her off her feet knocking down that wall and they lived happily ever after!

Sorry

Dear, love
I never meant to betray you or break your heart. I always meant to love you but I was confused the days where we did start. The random dark moments are that of past. I know you can't believe me when all arrows point to lies but the truth is what I've told you. There was no one else. I can't think of anyone but you. You captivate my heart. I will fight no less than forever and always, it's a future I want with you. Kids, a house and a dog. I dream of the day you would walk down the isle as my bride to be. I know that seems hard to see right now. But if I let you know the truth of my past. Maybe I'll be that lucky man and not spend eternity missing you. My heart aches, my stomach turns. I lost all trust and put the walls back up that I once broke down. Give me this one last chance, to give you that in which you deserve. Don't give up. I promises forever and always. So my lifes mission is to keep you by my side and apart of radiotherapy hearts. I love you please see past this all and love me too.

Yours Truly,
Corey Smith

Losing the one I love

Dear, world.

I Corey Smith can be the biggest idiot. I left a past behind that I was never proud of. A life where I was all about myself in a dark put of demons that controlled me and my every move. I made choices to put me there. I would trade the world to restart this. I would go back to the days at my locker to scared to talk to her. The girl of my dreams.

Somewhere after I turned Into a monster, I ran from all in life that was good. Punished myself for that I know now I could never control. Life wasn't fair to me but that doesn't mean I should have been unfair to you. Somewhere during my life change for the better you came back into it. To show me how much im worth. I doubted so much that a great love with you was possible but I should have known it was true. Instead I lied and went on with life with you. I should have been honest and spared you of more pain. My judgment was cloudy and hurt by past pains. All you've been is great to me through and through. And all I seem to do is screw up my future with you. When this started I never expected you to feel the same way. I never knew love like you've shown me. Thank you once again.

The moral of the story is I really know I need to step up and that I know I can do. I broke your heart and I don't deserve to have you. But I ask that you put this in the past and let me earn your love and trust so I can do what you did for me, love you through and through.

Yours Truly,
Corey Smith

PS: this may be my last

Ruined

No matter what I do, im a giant fuck up. I try my best to fix my past and make my future better but no I can't seem to do that. I break the one person who understands me and loves me heart. The stupid place I was in when things started. The stupid lack of confidence I had. I can't have your Trust and you don't believe I love you. You are perfect and im scum of the earth. I hoped I could become worthy of you. But I just ended up crashing. I love you and I hope one day you will forgive me. Maybe one day give me the chance to move on with a future with us. I dream of a family with you. I hope that dreams not ruined too. Im sorry, I love you.

The worlds biggest idiot,
Corey Smith

Pot holes

Hey world.
So I've been in a really ruff spot lately. You know when you get stuck in a rut and aren't sure your ever gonna escape it's grasp. Yes that is how I've been feeling. Some may say I have some bad karma others may just bluntly say it's my own fault which truthfully it is. My life, my responsibility.

Anyways, today I spend fingers crossed I get this job and can start soon. It's not just the job but me and my lovely girlfriends future together. I've fucked up enough I don't wanna screw up the thing I care about most in life, which is her. But I pray that some good comes soon before to much darkness falls. Let the clouds be lifted and sun shine through so I may have some guidance and hope to hold onto. She is my one true love and I need this for me, for her and for us. I just wanna move up and ahead to a promising future not a lifeless put of dead dreams and destruction.

So I hope this week turns around for I want to prove im that man.

Yours Truly,
Corey Smith

PS:
True love is worth fighting for no matter what.

True love

I don't know what to say... You used to snuggle under my neck everyone we would lay together. But lately I feel pushed away, there's a block you put up. That's more than likely my fault. I've been like a bomb needing to be defused lately. Doesn't help having people shooting me down with negative remarks. How do I fix this and bring back the affectionate moments we would always share. I fell for you, further than I ever knew a man could for a woman. But now that you have my heart it feels like you take it and forget why I have chosen you. I know you love me, but the words you say destroy me. I try and may sometimes fail, hit it would be nice for you to notice when I succeed more than my failures. To love is to lift up and to care endlessly. You care and lift but when I upset you it's like the reset buttons your first option. I hope to fix this, to fix us and myself for us. To spend eternity, build my future and my family with you. Have us forever. Im sorry, im like a broken alarm clock. Forgive me and let's step into our future together.

New chapter, fresh book

Hey, world!

How's it going? I've been having a lot going on. Have you ever had your shadows come to light all at once? Well this past while I have. I have fallen for the love of my life, never thinking till now this was possible for me. I went from a life of artificial emotions n words to a reality of something greater. A thing I call love. I struggle daily to comprehend my lifes trials and tribulations. As a special someone has said to me "you were just dealt a unfair hand of cards". I used to blame myself for so much but this beauty has brought light to the truth. I find the more time I spend with her n the more we talk I open up. I feel healed by her words, hugs and love. I am blessed with you in my life. I just wish my stress would not overwhelm Me and cause anymore hurt for me or you. But we have chosen to turn a new page n start a new chapter. And this book is one I look forward to writing. Cheers to a new day and a happy future. Me and you against the world beautiful!

Yours Truly,
Corey Smith

Good morning world,
I have had one crazy week, that is for sure. Last Saturday I injured a body part no man should have to go through the pain and mental terror it brings. But on a good note I finally met the girl of my dreams parents! They are both awesome people and thank god they approved of me. I've been learning all about how to build a relationship and what it means to fall for someone. I've known her for seven years, but now finally actually know her in depth. It's awesome because she is like my bestfriend and the lady of my future. As hard as it was to trust and open up I am learning it is worth it with her. The more we hang out and talk, the more happy I am. She has helped me break through so much and I can't wait to see what's next with us. I make her smile and it makes me feel like the world lights up brighter every time. I pray that I can keep being the man I really am with her and that we can work out through thick and thin.

Anyways, on another account im heading to BC to film another video St the end of the month and im so excited to see what I can bring to the table of skateboarding this year. After last years injuries I had my worries but with all the practice put in and progress made im sure I can achieve great things. As we'll as some exciting news about getting my first sponsor skateboard in June to ride for this years tour! Can't wait for this all and last years movie release! Im living a life of blessings and opportunity, now it's time to take them to the next level!
Thanks for listening to me ramble on and keep in the loop!

Yours Truly,
Corey Smith

I fail

I've turned.into the guy I.promised never to be. I don't know what came.over me. She is out of my league. When your too scared to lose the one you actually love you do the dumbest things. I wasn't being fair and I wish the things I learned the dumbest things growing up. I fail and that's the truth. I wanted to be honest but I was to scared. Why can't I break the wall down. Why do I resort to that of my past and father who failed me. Not fair to those I love. How do I be me. I try and then I fall. Please god let me be the man I know I am.

Yours truly,
Corey Smith

Adventures of pegasus and little mermaid

Good morning, world.
I've been starting to see this girl I met in my first year of highschool, we never talked that much till last fall. She's the kind of girl who seems to good to be true. I think I fell for her from a distance back in school. But now im falling for this elegant grown lady, who is that one person with the greatest of gifts she can literally make anyone smile. I won't lie being the lucky guy is making me nervous. But I think these nerves are of excitement and being amazed but such beauty in a person. Were not dating yet but I believe her heart flutters for me and that's the first and best step :) is it love yes, I do believe it is.

To everyone out there I hope you can find someone who can be your bestfriend and your gf or BF. Just remember don't give up. I almost did but wow I would have been kicking my self in the ass for a lifetime if I missed this.

Rebirthed

It's been forever since I've written anything. By forever I mean to long, so this late Monday evening. I've decided to start putting words back down on my blog for everyone to read and more than anything for myself. So much can change in such little time it's insane. I remember where I was last time I had written anything on here. Compared to the clarity and positivity inside me then to now is outrageous. I feel as if new, but the real way to look at it is a rebirth of a better me. Sometimes taking time to yourself is the best way to cure the darkness within. Anyways, till my next blog session.

Your Truly,
Corey Smith

Monday Monday Monday

Good morning world!
Sometimes life begins to feel like Monday morning got put on replay and then looped over to many times. But maybe that's just how winter makes me feel up here in frozen Edmonton, Alberta. I miss having a park to ride and the time I spent shredding outside at castle. Sure I got a mini pipe. But I feel as if I need new inspiration and new challenges. I sure haven't mattered mini yet even with the large array of tricks I have got stomped out here.just kids the trails and banks.the flow and innovative feeling working on lines in the park our street feels. Anyways can't wait for the riot movie and next years season to start.how to shred with you all soon.

Yours truly,
Corey Smith